Farewell

I shall never blog here again.

Farewell my memories.

1st week of last semester! SUCK!

Hectic! It’s the only word that could describe the 1^st week of last semester.

Why?

1. Suck calculus lecturer. Need to ask permission to go to toilet – just like in high school. And be prepared to be chuck out if you text in class – emergency or not!
2. So much to do in study skill and employability. Summore need to organize an event! Damn! Where got so much time?!
3. Throughout the whole semester I’ll be all alone - My friends quit studying. Guess I’ll become all loony by then.
4. Bloody FOM office’s under renovation. It’s so difficult to see lecturers or dean.
5. Last semester’s results is not out yet! Imagine that the hanging in the air feeling. It’s worst than jumping off a building.

Sigh~ Signing off blogger for now… LIFE SUCK!

Don't Know

I don’t know what to say anymore.

Only teardrops say it all.

Your pressure wins.

Aim it on me.

I’ll die.

Your pressure’s stays.

You lost me.

郁闷怪咖

8/6/2009

6.34 pm

独自坐在Secret Recipe，吃着不尔尔又粗糙的black forest，外加一杯热 caramel macchiato。呆呆的望着人来人往的人们，思绪漂浮的突然，就兴起提笔记下乱又糟的心情。

郁闷至极。

平常规律的星期一，就在今天出轨了。乱了。全归咎于，最后一堂被取消的课，再加上晚课的中医班没上课。时间多出了一点点。与mei原本计划去唱k。不过，看得出她很累，所以取消。在车里，犹豫不决的选择该回家或自个去看戏。打个电话回家试探性的与妈妈说话，衡量着她是否需要我陪，结果是一番冷语。眼泪在眼框打转。失望。狠下心，独自看电影去了。一个人看电影真是一种享受。既不必多余的找话聊，又避开不必要的奇怪眼神，乐此不疲。真的不得不承认自己是个怪咖。那又怎样，怪咖郁闷时就是酱的啊。还真不明白为何有些人就是一定要人陪。

好想回到从前，很久很久的从前，遗忘了的once upon a time。

看了电影，本有继续看下场的想法。最后退却了，凡事留条后路，戏该多留一部。后转为赖在书店，厚着脸皮看免费书。首先在言情小说类书籍前，东摸西摸的，本想买本到starbucks悠闲地看，可想到后果（浪费钱），就又退却了。反之逛到了风水命理类书籍那儿看看星座书，结果书虫爆发，一发不可收拾。就席地而坐，看得出神。时间也一样，一不留神，也跟着溜了。

嗯。咬了咬口不是很好吃的黑森林。

望了望手表。在书店坐了大概2个钟吧。生怕再度掉入书的世界，溜。原本打算再逛逛就回家。奈何，乱走乱逛乱想的，又闪神了。买了些文具，又再闪神的乱逛。“后来，我总算学会了如何去爱，可惜你早已远去…” 又·闪·神·了。后来逛到超市去买雪糕。之后原本打算打道回府，可是心情依然郁闷。走着，想着吃蛋糕心情会好些，就进来了。心情并没有好转，只是平静了一些，没有那么激动了。然后，就没有然后了。喝了最后一口macchiato。买单。

怪咖恶魔依然郁闷。不过是时候面对现实了。回·家。

7.23 pm

恶魔 笔

Lazy Bug

Ooppss!! I'm not suppose to be here right now to blog... OMG... I'm having algebra final exam in 6 hours time and I haven't finish studying yet... Bravo huh? xD hee...
Honestly, I've been thinking of studying since friday night. But, Saturday's night's still young, so, I postpone my study to Sunday. Again, Sunday's daytime's so tempting. How the hell you could say no to Sunday? So, postpone to night. And again, facebook's calling my name. So, I went facebook-ing until midnight...
Unwillingly, after midnight, I pick up my algebra notes and start eating it. Gosh... Then only I realize. So much to study, so little time!
But then, idiot as I am, I'm still here blogging. And its 3.28am right now...

GOD! PLEASE SAVE ME! I SWEAR I'LL NEVER SLACK AGAIN!!!

累·泪

最近心情还满低落的。说不出个所以然来。但又不是莫名其妙。这种感觉，难以形容。就像今天啊。就是想坐在戏院里，管它在做什么戏，就是想坐在戏院里。说真的，才过了几个小时而已，那套戏的细节都差不多忘得七七八八了。该笑的，当场就笑，然后笑声就留在那里。好累。真的好累。到底是累还是泪，我都慢慢搞不清楚了。

老想着要好好分配和平衡自己的时间。但，一天就才有24小时。顾此失彼的，更恼，更累了。头痛的症状，好像都没有什么痊愈的迹象。反而痛的次数增加了。什么人事物，就是一个字，乱！

就好像嫌生活不够乱不够烦似的，就年初3那天啊。跟碧谈了一整个晚上，才发现原来我已经当了3年的鸵鸟。就算这3年，不听不看不闻不问，都是没用的。因，当旧事重提时，依然会很痛很痛。就好比结霜了的伤口。又被人狠狠的再次刮伤，又流血了。真的很痛。

烦加乱还有痛。真的…无法形容。

C·N·Y

1st Day of CNY · Noon · Grandma’s house

After lunch…

My sis，cousin sis that live in Johor，and me~！

My cousin’s girl…（middle）

And not the least，my naughty cousin！Haha…

And here comes my aunt Josephine！

The lovely 1st day of CNY’s filled with laughter，chatter，and gossipsss！

♪ ⊹⊱´¯`·.¸¸.εїз**εїз.¸¸.¤´¯`¤☆¨*·¤.,.~·**¯`·*♡*·´¯**·~. ﻬ ஐ

2nd Day of CNY · Night · Eldest aunt’s house

After dinner…

Here，have a '98 Château red wine！

Apple，Natalie，Alexandra，Chanel’s drinking white wine…

White wine…

3rd glass of red wine and not drunk yet…haha…

From left：Iris，Aunt Josephine，Chanel，Apple，Natalie，Alexandra，Kristy

Everyone cheers！And Happy Chinese New Year~！
Family，love you all~！Muackxx~！

P/S ：Whoopps！Missed out mom and dad！（pic will be upload in the next post）
Btw，No body’s drunk！Everyone’s a good drinker I think…xD
Credits to Cousin Iris for 2 bottles of wine！

Rush Hour

5th Jan 2009

Today’s a really hectic day for me. Wake up at around 6.30am today to prepare to go to class, the feeling’s unbearable – my whole body’s aching, every cell in my body are begging for a minute to just lie in bed. Gosh! What a morning!

And that doesn’t stop here. First, I’m actually so glad that I got to school in time – I’m usually always late, and got into the right classroom. But a girl told me that the class was somewhere else, so I’d followed her, turns out that the class is for degree students. Big time huh! Anyway, I only realize the weirdness after 2 minutes that I’m probably in the wrong classroom as there are not many familiar faces. Omigosh! Talk about embarrassment. Lucky I had time to flee. In addition, the girl who told me class was somewhere else had fled earlier than me. And didn’t even bother to inform me!
Fine then! So I went back to the right classroom that I previously went. And turns out that the lecturer’s a part-timer and was absent today. Darn! So I decided to drop this bloody subject as the lecturer show this kind of first impression. Good day!

So, by going through the entire timetables, something finally fits in. By then, we’re having quite a normal day for the following hour. And finally the classes ended at 5.30pm.

When I was on my way home, I’ve drive like a maniac just to reach in time. And guess what? I only used 10 minutes to reach Kajang from Salak South. ( Shhh!!! That’s a secret…)
After I’d reached home, I eat as though I’m swallowing my food! Gross… Then again, I hit the road once more, heading to Chinese herbs class at Petaling Street. And for your info, it takes only 12 minutes. Ha! Am I a maniac or what? Haha…
Anyway, just to wrap up. I’ve reach home once more about 10.30pm, thus it takes only 9 minutes. After settling down, here I am writing to myself as a maniac again, ignoring the tired body I’m holding on…

1st January 2009~!!!

...31st Dec 2008...
...Around 7.30pm...

There's a party going on at aunt's house tonight. And here I am, ditching all my friends just to spend the night here...
And guess what? I'm surely not regretting it~! Its fun here...
We listen to music that could wake the whole neighborhood (I don't think they mind as their part of the organizer), chats that lead to nowhere (cousins sis, sis n me), funny giggles and laughter inside the house (us again), and barks from Paris n Hilton (Uncle Raymond’s puppies)...
Not to mention the foods are amazing... Homemade pizzas, Penang asam soup, blueberry cheese cake, you name it!!! Yum...Yum...Yummy...

Beloved couz n sis~! Taken this right before New Year...

Apple n me...Yikes! Can’t even see my eyes...Hee...

YanYan n me...

Happy New Year~!
This pic is taken right after 12.00am...

...1st Jan 2009...
...Around 12.00am...

Fireworks in the air~! WooHoo...
Dear all, may year 2009 brings joy and luck to all of us!
Once again, happy new year 2009!!!

Deep down

Many unsaid word goes astray. Many unsaid sadness goes unknown. Little that we know, how the others felt.
Anger is the tool for man to release frustration, yet is also the tool for man to hurt each other. Sometimes its speech might also work as well as a killing weapon.
I don’t know what to say, nor how should I react.
I’m just a person who doesn’t understand the use of the little tool god create.
Right now, I’m just pathetic.

WPF 2301

考虑了好久，这篇文章是否要用华语来述呢，还是英文？答案大概盲的都知道了。昨晚不知是否发神经，到了凌晨3点左右都还没睡。怪纳闷的。重点来了，今天是本恶魔的外婆的大寿。所以啊，七早八早的，很累的恶魔就被叫起床了。大家就带着寿星去吃肉骨茶当早餐。（味道还满好吃的。有兴趣可以当面问恶魔。）呃…基本上那些都不是重点。重点是，今天的恶魔，驾Myvi仔真的真的超级斯文的。平时横冲直撞，蛮横，速度吓坏路旁的阿嬷的Myvi仔，今早真是斯文到恶魔自己都傻了。其实嘞，恶魔的态度变天使是另有内情的啦！讲到就有气！话说今早去吃肉骨茶，想当然尔驾车护驾的就只有恶魔了（因为恶魔豆豆没去。）本恶魔家的可爱皇太后真是了得！五十步笑百步的，命令恶魔必须斯文，礼让，而且速度还要比龟还慢。（Myvi仔，恶魔对不起你。害你抬不起头来做车了。）不过，那还没至于让EQ高超的恶魔和Myvi仔恨的牙痒痒的。真正打击恶魔和Myvi仔的自信心的是，咱们竟然被…被…个平时恶魔和Myvi仔最讨厌的巫裔同胞超越？！哇噻！害到恶魔真是有千言万语诉不尽的脏话要贡献给社会。唉…冬鞋们…如有一日，看见本恶魔的Myvi仔变得很斯文很斯文滴，拜托让路。不要再刺激已在暗地里骂脏话的恶魔了。

21 November 2008

To you, my pathetic friend,

You might think that you’ve insulted others, but you’ve somehow insulted yourself the most! As you are criticizing, you may want to look at yourself before imposing such action. The way you’re hurting the others really bothers me a lot even though there’s nothing concern me. You might have low self esteem, but it’s not the proper way to level up you esteem. All you need is to get over yourself and face the reality. Plus, boosting about your love life, emphasize how cool you are in your college does not make you look any cooler! So just get a grip! We’ve changed. All of us had. Just you, still living the pathetic life we left behind when we’re so dumb. I really felt sorry for you. I sincerely hope that you’ll change. May god bless you.

Sincerely,
Deviliyin

16 November 2008

Dear blog,

This week, I had a very contrast week. I’m actually wondering why someone would have a terrific beginning of the week and suddenly it ended like a disaster. God knows! At the beginning of the week, as in for Monday, there’s good news of postponing an exam to next week. Isn’t that great news for lazy chap like me? Haa… Nonetheless, Wednesday was even a greater day. Hanging out at Jogoya, eat out our belly, taking pictures, teasing each other and fooling around, well? What you can say? Jokes are in the air!

And here comes the bad news. I thought that Saturday was the worst I could ever get. Besides nil sales, I also get a annoying, self centered, I’m-an-shitting-asshole employer. A very nice day someone could have huh! Well then, I though today wouldn’t be as bad as yesterday though, but I’m so totally wrong. The dumb boss not just only shitting-asshole, he’s a mother-fxxker-damn-shitting-asshole. Phew… that’s better. I’m not going into the details since it’s a long story. But to emphasize my emotion, all I had to say is that I finally admitted that I need super hot latte mocha to calm me down so that I would not yell at the mother-fxxker-damn-shitting-asshole. Anyway, I did get 1 sale today but still get screwed. So, what can I say again? *&^%$#@#$%$#

P.s.: Thank God I had you, my blog.

Honestly,
Deviliyin

我不是故意的

男人和女人结为夫妻七年了。男人，事业有成，不过总是对夫人唯唯喏喏的。女人，贤惠得体，但总爱对丈夫呼呼喝喝。总的来说，就是女权当威啊~！不过，世事难料。害怕夫人的男人，竟大胆的背叛起女人了，在外金屋藏娇。

[美娇娘跟家里头的河东狮怎样比，就怎样的好。] 男人得意。想着。
“芊…你怎能如此温柔似水呢？和老子家的婆娘比起来，真是温顺的小鹿呐。”
“呵呵…”芊，轻笑着。

女人从朋友口中得知，男人在外有个女人。她，不动声色。静静的。
“你回来啦？今晚怎么那么迟啊？”女人问。
“我，有件事要告诉你。我在外面有个女人。”
“我知道。那，你想怎样？”一片平静。
“我要离婚。对不起”靠，要不是怕她发狂，谁鸟她呀！
“好。不要后悔。”
男人终离开了女人。成天沉迷与温柔香里，不亦乐呼。男人对于芊，没有任何的挑剔，更不会有任何的怨言。
芊有个小小缺点。她，太迷糊了。口头禅不外呼是，对不起，我不是故意的，不好意思。不过看在男人眼里。可爱极了。

…晚饭后…
“人家帮你放水洗澡，好不好？”
“嗯…”离开了恶婆娘真的一点都没错。哈…
“热水准备好了哦~！”娇声道。
“好好…就来了。就来了。”

男人此刻舒适的躺在浴缸内。享受着正在按摩的小手。
“人家帮你吹干头发好不好？”
“好好…”

…呼呼呼…
吹着。吹风筒掉入水里。
“啊~！！！”男人惨叫。
“啊~！对不起。对不起。我不是故意的~！”女人道。

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[果然，背叛妻子的人，将不得好死。还死得那么难看。] 想着。
“你那温柔的女人，被判误杀哦！”女人笑道。后，慢慢的离开墓碑。

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p/s : 故事纯属虚构，如有雷同，纯粹巧合。

靠！

靠！我·是·个·笨·猪~！

极短篇之精神分裂

在这病态的21世纪城市里。有着无数的故事。而我在这，是要述一个，属于我与我的故事。对，不要怀疑自己的眼睛。就是个属于我与我的故事。

[瑞哒，跟你说了多少遍，不要再见那个人了！你都不明人话了吗？]
“对不起！对不起！我不是故意的。我…我 …对…对不起…”
[好…拜托你以后不要再这样了，好不好？不然我会消失耶！乖厚…听话。]

哼！再不听话就把这没用的笨蛋灭了。省得碍事。

[你要记住，在这宇宙里只有我是对你最好的。嗯？]
“嗯！你是我最好的朋友。我只能信你。”

我不会再见那个人了。不会了。再也不会了。

叩叩叩。糟！是妈妈。

…抖抖…

拜托不要逼我。
“啊~！呜~！求求你！妈妈！我求求你！我不要见他！不要不要…”
“瑞哒，你相信妈妈。妈妈不会害你的。”
“不…不要…如果我见了他，她会消失的。我会被抛弃的。求求你不要！”
“不要闹了好不好。你妈我快要崩溃了~！”
[她都说了不要你都不明白吗？]

哈哈哈哈哈~！臭婆娘，跟我斗？哈哈哈哈哈~！做梦！

“你这坏蛋！给我滚！不要缠着她了！不要再…啊~！再…缠着…她…她了…”
[该滚的是你才对！下地狱吧~！哈哈哈哈哈~！]
“好…好…多血…妈妈！妈妈！你醒醒啊！救命…救命啊！妈妈~！”

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某电视台新闻报道。

[昨日中午，在台北市一带发生了“精神分裂女杀母后自尽”的悲剧。根据死者家属表示，2位死者本应到某医院……]

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p/s: 故事纯属虚构，如有雷同，纯粹巧合

Monday

The congested traffic in the morning always drives me nut. For the whole night I can’t sleep, and have been staying awake until 3.30am. And with a 6.30am alarm, my day was predicted a disaster. And it’s most probably accurate! Feeling unwell with the urge of vomiting, I’ve somehow manage to drive to school. Furthermore, from 8am to 2pm, I’ve been tolerating an extremely warm classroom with some kind of weird odour. Plus an irritating lecturer who teaches law. Not to mention the loads of homework that had been given, moreover a midterm exam is on this Friday. The imaginable stresses are to foresee even by a kindergarten kid. However, me mom doesn’t recognize this kind of emotions and been picking on me nonstop! I hate it! The furious anger is burning wildly in me right now! And I don’t know when it’s going to stop…

Anyway, thanks a lot tortoise! You’re always the one with me when I’m in terrible condition. Hopefully as u said, tomorrow will be a nice day…

2008年9月11日

好巧，今天是911事件发生后的第几年了？不清楚。虽然时间过了那么久，不过伤痛依然吧。是不是这是使得我的天空持续灰暗的原因呢？不懂…

打从昨晚，盛怒的情绪不曾退过。生气的原因就不多废话了。无声的抗议你喜欢吗？喜欢就好。慢慢的享受这一片宁静吧！原本糟到不能再糟的心情，因为某个以海洋生物命名的笨蛋，而变得好多了，至少控制了想哭的冲动。衷心的说一次，谢谢。

2008年09月08日

好久没有来恶魔秘密记事本倒垃圾了…垃圾堆了5个月的，真的不知从何开始清理起。乱没趣的…首先，本恶魔想改邪归正，当个天使如何？不过想象起来挺怪的呗！所以，都只是游手好闲时小小的想一下而已。
恶魔的有位朋友说，羡慕恶魔能如此神经质没烦恼的过日子。唉…朋友！你错了！冷暖自知啊。恶魔也有很多事情必须做考量啊…还有，恶魔不是神经质没烦恼耶！神经质没烦恼的，是白痴。噢可？况且恶魔也有很认真好不好。尤其损你们的时候啊，不然怎么老会冒出一箩的经典损语呢？哈…

最近，也不知是几时，心情反复无常。小小的小小事，恶魔也能气个十日八日的，伤感个几天几夜。情绪有够杂乱。还有啊，话说那天啊，为了跟朋友小聚一番，竟放了中五昔日同窗的鸽子。实在不应该！大家，I’m so sorry…
日子真的过的好快好快，死党们，上课的上课，出国的出国，工作的工作，还真是忙啊…偶尔聚个会也不见了两三只猫。遗憾遗憾。

今天已是学校开课的第2个星期了。闷。吃喝玩乐滴欢乐时光不复在。

垃圾实在太多了。看来垃圾还是继续堆着好了。反正清理了也还是乱七八糟。

不过，本恶魔想跟某某位可爱的朋友说：“需要我时，随时打个电话来吧！不要自己难过。”虽然说帮不上什么忙，至少把你的问题说出口，好让我损损你嘛！哈…开玩笑的啦！

Friday

"Life's a wrestling match, but who will win in the end?"
It's quite amazing when I get different kind of answers from different people.
Some said, they will win in the end.
Some said, nobody knows.
Some said, God wins.
But I said, it'll open at the close. That means the question will be answered when death approaches.
Which is the answer that will satisfy the every single soul on earth?

It's funny how I see things nowadays.
"Who the hell change my way of looking into life and death?" I've been figuring this question in me for so many months. And finally, I found the answer today while I stare blankly into no where. The key that open my door of query is surprising yet disappointing. By reading! I found a new way of looking into everything. Book by book I've read, no matter what language, which culture, or who's the author. I, finally found a way that I choose to believe. But, in any case, I see disappointment in myself. As a matter of fact, there's no one wise to guide me to the right path, because people all around me doesn't build an attitude that I could rely on. Not even my close ones.