Don't Know

I don’t know what to say anymore.

Only teardrops say it all.

Your pressure wins.

Aim it on me.

I’ll die.

Your pressure’s stays.

You lost me.

郁闷怪咖

8/6/2009

6.34 pm

独自坐在Secret Recipe，吃着不尔尔又粗糙的black forest，外加一杯热 caramel macchiato。呆呆的望着人来人往的人们，思绪漂浮的突然，就兴起提笔记下乱又糟的心情。

郁闷至极。

平常规律的星期一，就在今天出轨了。乱了。全归咎于，最后一堂被取消的课，再加上晚课的中医班没上课。时间多出了一点点。与mei原本计划去唱k。不过，看得出她很累，所以取消。在车里，犹豫不决的选择该回家或自个去看戏。打个电话回家试探性的与妈妈说话，衡量着她是否需要我陪，结果是一番冷语。眼泪在眼框打转。失望。狠下心，独自看电影去了。一个人看电影真是一种享受。既不必多余的找话聊，又避开不必要的奇怪眼神，乐此不疲。真的不得不承认自己是个怪咖。那又怎样，怪咖郁闷时就是酱的啊。还真不明白为何有些人就是一定要人陪。

好想回到从前，很久很久的从前，遗忘了的once upon a time。

看了电影，本有继续看下场的想法。最后退却了，凡事留条后路，戏该多留一部。后转为赖在书店，厚着脸皮看免费书。首先在言情小说类书籍前，东摸西摸的，本想买本到starbucks悠闲地看，可想到后果（浪费钱），就又退却了。反之逛到了风水命理类书籍那儿看看星座书，结果书虫爆发，一发不可收拾。就席地而坐，看得出神。时间也一样，一不留神，也跟着溜了。

嗯。咬了咬口不是很好吃的黑森林。

望了望手表。在书店坐了大概2个钟吧。生怕再度掉入书的世界，溜。原本打算再逛逛就回家。奈何，乱走乱逛乱想的，又闪神了。买了些文具，又再闪神的乱逛。“后来，我总算学会了如何去爱，可惜你早已远去…” 又·闪·神·了。后来逛到超市去买雪糕。之后原本打算打道回府，可是心情依然郁闷。走着，想着吃蛋糕心情会好些，就进来了。心情并没有好转，只是平静了一些，没有那么激动了。然后，就没有然后了。喝了最后一口macchiato。买单。

怪咖恶魔依然郁闷。不过是时候面对现实了。回·家。

7.23 pm

恶魔 笔

Lazy Bug

Ooppss!! I'm not suppose to be here right now to blog... OMG... I'm having algebra final exam in 6 hours time and I haven't finish studying yet... Bravo huh? xD hee...
Honestly, I've been thinking of studying since friday night. But, Saturday's night's still young, so, I postpone my study to Sunday. Again, Sunday's daytime's so tempting. How the hell you could say no to Sunday? So, postpone to night. And again, facebook's calling my name. So, I went facebook-ing until midnight...
Unwillingly, after midnight, I pick up my algebra notes and start eating it. Gosh... Then only I realize. So much to study, so little time!
But then, idiot as I am, I'm still here blogging. And its 3.28am right now...

GOD! PLEASE SAVE ME! I SWEAR I'LL NEVER SLACK AGAIN!!!

累·泪

最近心情还满低落的。说不出个所以然来。但又不是莫名其妙。这种感觉，难以形容。就像今天啊。就是想坐在戏院里，管它在做什么戏，就是想坐在戏院里。说真的，才过了几个小时而已，那套戏的细节都差不多忘得七七八八了。该笑的，当场就笑，然后笑声就留在那里。好累。真的好累。到底是累还是泪，我都慢慢搞不清楚了。

老想着要好好分配和平衡自己的时间。但，一天就才有24小时。顾此失彼的，更恼，更累了。头痛的症状，好像都没有什么痊愈的迹象。反而痛的次数增加了。什么人事物，就是一个字，乱！

就好像嫌生活不够乱不够烦似的，就年初3那天啊。跟碧谈了一整个晚上，才发现原来我已经当了3年的鸵鸟。就算这3年，不听不看不闻不问，都是没用的。因，当旧事重提时，依然会很痛很痛。就好比结霜了的伤口。又被人狠狠的再次刮伤，又流血了。真的很痛。

烦加乱还有痛。真的…无法形容。

C·N·Y

1st Day of CNY · Noon · Grandma’s house

After lunch…

My sis，cousin sis that live in Johor，and me~！

My cousin’s girl…（middle）

And not the least，my naughty cousin！Haha…

And here comes my aunt Josephine！

The lovely 1st day of CNY’s filled with laughter，chatter，and gossipsss！

♪ ⊹⊱´¯`·.¸¸.εїз**εїз.¸¸.¤´¯`¤☆¨*·¤.,.~·**¯`·*♡*·´¯**·~. ﻬ ஐ

2nd Day of CNY · Night · Eldest aunt’s house

After dinner…

Here，have a '98 Château red wine！

Apple，Natalie，Alexandra，Chanel’s drinking white wine…

White wine…

3rd glass of red wine and not drunk yet…haha…

From left：Iris，Aunt Josephine，Chanel，Apple，Natalie，Alexandra，Kristy

Everyone cheers！And Happy Chinese New Year~！
Family，love you all~！Muackxx~！

P/S ：Whoopps！Missed out mom and dad！（pic will be upload in the next post）
Btw，No body’s drunk！Everyone’s a good drinker I think…xD
Credits to Cousin Iris for 2 bottles of wine！

Rush Hour

5th Jan 2009

Today’s a really hectic day for me. Wake up at around 6.30am today to prepare to go to class, the feeling’s unbearable – my whole body’s aching, every cell in my body are begging for a minute to just lie in bed. Gosh! What a morning!

And that doesn’t stop here. First, I’m actually so glad that I got to school in time – I’m usually always late, and got into the right classroom. But a girl told me that the class was somewhere else, so I’d followed her, turns out that the class is for degree students. Big time huh! Anyway, I only realize the weirdness after 2 minutes that I’m probably in the wrong classroom as there are not many familiar faces. Omigosh! Talk about embarrassment. Lucky I had time to flee. In addition, the girl who told me class was somewhere else had fled earlier than me. And didn’t even bother to inform me!
Fine then! So I went back to the right classroom that I previously went. And turns out that the lecturer’s a part-timer and was absent today. Darn! So I decided to drop this bloody subject as the lecturer show this kind of first impression. Good day!

So, by going through the entire timetables, something finally fits in. By then, we’re having quite a normal day for the following hour. And finally the classes ended at 5.30pm.

When I was on my way home, I’ve drive like a maniac just to reach in time. And guess what? I only used 10 minutes to reach Kajang from Salak South. ( Shhh!!! That’s a secret…)
After I’d reached home, I eat as though I’m swallowing my food! Gross… Then again, I hit the road once more, heading to Chinese herbs class at Petaling Street. And for your info, it takes only 12 minutes. Ha! Am I a maniac or what? Haha…
Anyway, just to wrap up. I’ve reach home once more about 10.30pm, thus it takes only 9 minutes. After settling down, here I am writing to myself as a maniac again, ignoring the tired body I’m holding on…

1st January 2009~!!!

...31st Dec 2008...
...Around 7.30pm...

There's a party going on at aunt's house tonight. And here I am, ditching all my friends just to spend the night here...
And guess what? I'm surely not regretting it~! Its fun here...
We listen to music that could wake the whole neighborhood (I don't think they mind as their part of the organizer), chats that lead to nowhere (cousins sis, sis n me), funny giggles and laughter inside the house (us again), and barks from Paris n Hilton (Uncle Raymond’s puppies)...
Not to mention the foods are amazing... Homemade pizzas, Penang asam soup, blueberry cheese cake, you name it!!! Yum...Yum...Yummy...

Beloved couz n sis~! Taken this right before New Year...

Apple n me...Yikes! Can’t even see my eyes...Hee...

YanYan n me...

Happy New Year~!
This pic is taken right after 12.00am...

...1st Jan 2009...
...Around 12.00am...

Fireworks in the air~! WooHoo...
Dear all, may year 2009 brings joy and luck to all of us!
Once again, happy new year 2009!!!